Still unhappy......

i know
i've got a house but it's not my home
i've got some friends but i'm still alone
i've got a dream but it won't come true
this i know

i know the stars twinkle every night
i see the clouds blocking all the light
i know that we can't be together even if we want
i know i know

and so the sunset sunrise i'm used to
and all the days and weeks and years i've gone through
the weather is too much too cold here
i'd rather stay there for the rest of my life

i've got some clothes but i still feel cold
i've tried to try but they still say no
i feel so lonely all the time but there's no one to hold

i pushed the door but it's to be pulled
i went along and became a fool
i went to buy the trumpet i'd been saving for
but it's sold it's sold it's sold

the temperature is much too low here
i'd rather stay away for the rest of my life

today i did something really bad today....what should i do...........?